感動した

I don't remember when was the last time I cried, but I just knew that the only reason that brought about the burst of tears in me was the release of bottled up feelings and emotions. Every single time.

I can't believe I managed to cry today, my last day at Japanese class. All was fine when I bid farewell to my sensei-tachi, when we were still goofing around with the guys in my class. All was fine when everyone told me to take care, bon voyage and good luck. All was still fine when I said my thanks, smiled and gave them all a hug each. :')

When I got home and started packing my old notes, I realised how long a road we have come. It has been almost 4 months; people have come and gone, new faces arrived and the ones I knew from the start were still there, unchanged. I randomly picked up a set of notes. 「4月十六日」 More than a month had passed yet the words we learnt that day felt like just yesterday. The jokes we made in class, the harmless insults we throw at one another, the nicknames we adopted, how we girls laughed at the ultimate otaku sides of the guys (honestly I've never seen any more serious cases)...... There are just countless memorable moments with this class that make us so unforgettable. Why is it so hard to say goodbye?

Then came in a flood of messages from them, telling me it's alright because they will definitely organise an outing when I get back, along with well wishes and kind words.

My wet eyelids flooded my entire cheeks with tears. What an overwhelming feeling which I have never experienced, from a bunch of amazing people I will never ever forget.

(ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

Bye Singapore. Hello New York.

仲間

Tried Menya Musashi's tsukemen today with my Jap classmates. It was good. You can upsize the ramen serving up to 5 times for FREE. I had the normal serving though and it was filling enough. I'm feeling rather thirsty from the strong tasting soup. And the queue was crazy!

Sat at Starbucks for a 2 hour-long chat with them after. I enjoyed it so much. I tried to keep a little of myself back but with them, I became myself completely, as I am with GLIKED or nerds. Maybe it's a good thing. It's just this invisible connection we all share. And tomorrow will be my last official lesson.... T_T Why must parting be so inevitably hard?!

I do hope we get the chance to meet up again when I'm back from the US to go for ramen, a chat and laughing sessions. Hopefully! ♥

And yes I'm flying to USA tomorrow. Dream holiday since forever, here I come~
（楽しみにしています〜）☆

世界

我只信任信任我的人。

世界就是如此现实、可悲。当你抵达到了一道交叉路口，世上每个角落的人都聚集在你身旁，监视你的一举一动。梦想和期望根本就是两回事。此刻的你，是选择了大胆而充实的美梦，还是与他人一样，卷进了「期望」的大漩涡了呢？

我选择了仰望着天空；太阳的漠然，云朵的无所事事，现在下着毛雨吗...？ 雨水似乎也落了下来，忽冷忽热，忽然起了刮风又忽然雨过天晴。啊~ 这是多么熟门熟路的一面。

我从来就不敢往眼前的路看。我知道当我开始步行的时候，... 野兽它们追来，手里握着刀柄的天使向你微笑，玫瑰的刺有多么毒多么痛。这我都知道、我都受过。你往熟悉并且无忧无虑的草原走，不料草原中的毒蛇往你一袭击... 我宁可被不相识的强盗一枪把我开死，也不愿被扩散的蛇毒缓缓的送进永恒的睡眠。

世界的恐怖，世界的负担，世界的笑与欺诈，世界的爱与恨... 这就是天空的一切情景给予的答覆。

運転する

whale-shaped morning cheddar snacks / new nails of the week (Japanese-inspired) / care to guess which luggage belongs to me? / testing out the tripod / view from my house / a gif (I need a gif maker!)

I've been spending most of mornings driving around alone, after getting permission from my dad (やっと!!). I'm actually trying to figure out what exactly convinced him that I'm a reliable driver, because I don't even feel that way. I think I can drive, but my poor judgmental skills and tendency to daze out nowadays may cause lives.......

I really need to be more alert. 2 months left before Uni starts. Can you believe half a year of 2012 is about to be over just like that?

I drove my best girlfriends out for (late) dinner at Old Airport Road today. I kinda got lost so we reached there at about 8:30. Sorry girls! (for the traumatic experience too)




Old Airport Road Food Centre has real good food. Yum.

Driving around aimlessly could actually be a great (and expensive) hobby.  Sometimes, you just need to go to places and get lost, in order to find yourself. Ironic, isn't it? I vaguely got lost in the Science Park this morning and thoughts were awakened. The vulnerability of oneself against the huge, unfamiliar world filled up the empty space in the car. It's an incredible feeling.

Also probably why I am usually in a daze.

Mustard.

I'm really into mustard colour these days. I hate yellow actually, but the dirtier version of yellow attracts me lately. I want everything here.


This ombre blazer too, even though it's yellow. Ah I need to live in a colder place!

Smashed.

This happened today.

Dropped my phone flat on the ground while I was getting out of the car and it got smashed pretty bad. Yes yes everyone's telling me serves you right for not putting a cover, but the thing is I'm not VERY affected by the crack? Just okay. Feeling fine about it. It's still usable, so.

Anyway, I met up with Grace and Daphy today! It's a girls only thing without the rest of GLIKED. Still it was nice catching up even though it was just a short meet up. While everyone else is feeling a little more lonelier after their boyfriends enter army, I'm still as carefree as ever!


We had Fat Boys today. I pass this place almost everyday for French and I only got to try it today. It was so-so, patty was a bit dry but I was hungry so I ate everything anyway......


Went for ice cream at Salted Caramel, pretty good! I like the chocolate sorbet(?) because it's slightly more bitter than sweet. ♥


Prolly the only reason why I MIGHT actually miss JC life ♥

Collected some of my film shots from the Baccalaureate Service. It turned out better than expected. Unlike the stupid Holga shots, ugh. (read this)






I like this!





Busy busy busy~~~

Busybee

This made my day! So adorable.

I just got back from Bangkok (will blog about it soon!) on Monday night and on Tuesday and Wednesday, I had 9 hours of Japanese lessons in one day! It was crazy. But it was nothing compared to JC days, and surprisingly I was not sleepy at all (of course because it's Japanese)! I'm so glad I survived them and it's great to wake up a little later this Thursday morning. Of course I'm still rushing to revise my work and finish up all my homework, but life has been good. Finally had some morning free time to listen to the new CDs I bought 2 weeks ago and meditate :)

Does anybody still buy random CDs to listen to like I do?

Anyway, I have become such an おっちょこうちょい (scatterbrain) since the start of this year! I don't know what had happened to my judgmental skills but it's become really bad nowadays. While I was driving for the past few days, I estimated the distance to the traffic light wrongly, TWICE. And it's exaggeratedly bad judgment. Once was when I stopped about 5 metres before the traffic light because I braked too early, and the other one was I realised that the traffic light was nearer than I had expected and I had to emergency brake! What kind of driver am I? The most embarrassing thing that happened was I had forgotten to wind up the windows after parking and then I started the engine instead of cutting it. (prolly forgot that turning it clockwise starts the engine instead) Sigh. Help?


Happy belated birthdays to two of the most important guys in my life, Ian and Ernest! I am such a bad friend for always being too lazy to write on people's walls, but from the bottom of my heart, they have my well wishes. And I'm really thankful they've been part of my life! :)

Decisions, decisions...

I HAVE 24 HOURS to decide if I want to continue Japanese lessons with my current class. Sigh, making what may seem life-changing decisions is one thing I can never do with much self-confidence. I really, and am determined to continue but weighing it out with many other factors, it seems hardly possible to master this language properly. Then it would be pointless to try to force what cannot be done wouldn't it? In fact, I think I am just not ready for this psychological and physical(?) stress I may face.

Come on, it's not like A Levels. You've been there, done that.

よく考えろ！早く決めるよ...