I had something to blog about but I got so distracted by covers on YouTube and disgusting animal abuse pictures on FB it's now time for me to sleep. What is so nice about hurting animals?! Is it nice to skin your children alive or beat them to death?
I am currently broke without a job + paying for my own lessons with my pathetic pay last month. Yet, I just cannot settle for any of the jobs which I found right now because of my full time lessons. I haven't driven in more than 3 weeks and I'm pretty sure I've completely forgotten how to drive properly. Furthermore, my driving test is in another 5 weeks time. Wow what the hell am I doing in my life. And I have less than 2 weeks left to doomsday, so I've been spending my time looking at any possible uni opportunities/plans I may have from here on despite how reluctant I am to even think about it. Honestly my future is so bleak there isn't a path carved out for me to move on. It's so dark... I wanna just forget about everything for now and face reality 2 weeks later, but I just can't. I've been having minor panic attacks during daytime and trouble to sleep at night or waking up in the middle of the night with my heart racing really quickly and my pillow soaked in tears due to nightmares. I take comfort in food and retail therapy but these aren't gonna be any better because I gained back all the weight I lost while working and secondly... start reading this entire paragraph again.
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