Over-think.

After 2 consecutive days of fishball noodles for dinner, I gained back the 2kg I lost after CNY week. T____T

Lost 3kg, gained 3kg, lost 2kg, gained 2kg.

Losing weight is so tough... Gaining weight on the other hand is TOO EASY. I've been trying to control my diet recently since I don't have the time to burn them off by exercising. Work work work.

Today's mood: negative x10000000

Think the depression has slowly started to sink in, especially at work because I stone so much, I tend to think and think and think... And make myself sad. Over thinking - one of the bad habits I have yet to kick.

Yet I really can't help but think about how bleak my future really is. I tried to imagine how it feels like to step into the future. What do I see myself 5 years down the road? Standing 11 hours a day earning $5 an hour? Is that what I really want? Or do I really have a choice?

My fate's already been decided, it's just a matter of time before I face it. Right now, I should stop thinking about it, but it's just impossible.

:'(